Aug 09 2005
Fear, Apprehension, Relief
Those are just some of the emotions I felt prior to Discovery’s landing this morning. They were not unlike the feelings I had once before when Discovery launched. That would be the first post-Challenger launch. I was a high school teacher at the time of the Challenger accident, and there was a high school teacher on board. The school where I taught is on the river right across from Kennedy Space Center. That horrible accident unfolded before me, as I stood in the school parking lot with my students, other teachers, and their students. It’s where we always stood to watch launches during school hours. We thought this would just be like all the others. We’d watch the launch, then back to class.
When we returned to flight, I was still at that school, but Discovery launched during my planning period. A group of teachers and students stood at the school gate, watching across the river, holding hands and breath. We did not exhale until the infamous “Go at throttle up” was safely uttered.
This morning my life is so different than it was back then. Then I was single. Now I’m married to someone who works in the space industry. Then I was teaching other people’s kids. Now I homeschool my only child. I woke up at 5:30 am, vaguely aware that I didn’t hear the sonic booms. After turning on the tv, and finding out they were sending Discovery to California, I went back to sleep for a few hours.
Watching Discovery land, I could not help but reflect on the changes since the last time that bird was the first post-disaster flight. Yet with all the changes in our world, our country, and my life, my feelings were so much like that day nearly 17 years ago.
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